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The Battle of a Human Soul

Gallant is my love for you

I pledge in this discourse

For now I know your counsel true

Has a high and mighty source

I hence forsake the folly past

All vile and morbid sin

And pray to God, my soul, at last

Grows strong enough to win!

Reprieve, my love, lest to be stoned

Alas, ineffaceable sin

So with remorse, I do atone

Ooh, will I be forgiven?

The strength I draw from you is real

And Your love, I sense, will grow

But, some messages are still surreal

So, bear with me if I’m slow …

Great fortune is my fate to be

Into your service bound

Perhaps, just serendipity

Has made me run aground ?

While I question my deservedness

You outreach for my hand

And I capture for a moment, bliss

As you raise me loft, again

And from this place, can I see far

Both forward and aback

The light ahead doth lateral mar

Into a hollow black …

Camarilla calls from Abaddon

The devil’s own cabal

Intrigue temps through lust and song

Cajoling to enthral …

In false pretence, I bid adieu

Then turned, ostensibly

What callous chaos did ensue

And stymied attempts to flee!

But, what of one’s inherent good

Did it, now also flee?

Despondently, I thought, I should

As this place is not for me …

My rational no longer worked

Inside, just swelled despair

While the bondage of temptation lurked

Ever closer to my lair

The quest for love was nearly nigh

Acceptance was far won

My health allowed just one more try

The route was through God’s Son …

For then I learned humility

And grappled with my will

To effect change of destiny

And, to covenant, fulfil

Alas, Great Battle fore did loom …

— And quickly came my way —

Some weapon I must brandish soon

With none, I knelt to pray …

At this point, You did emerge

To delve into my head

And proceed to my worry purge

As you parried in my stead

Then, Helmet, Shield, and Sword came, Lo!

To rest right by my feet

And with these tools Thou didst bestow

Hell’s Angel did I meet

A vicious tumult did ebb and flow

While I learned that I was not alone

But Addiction’s weight is hard to throw

It is pervasive and quick to clone

So with unscabbard’ sword and fended bust

And vigilance as my inflexible thought

I now Duck, Parry, Lunge and Thrust !

Let benevolence guard my defences not !

The Shadow knows how to usurp

Your clamorous ascent

The last beguiler to desert

And, the first one to prevent …

Dark shadows just grow stronger

As you close in on the light

They stalk to foil asunder

And lie in wait, to fight

So, The School of Hard Knocks knows me well

— I’ve graduated thrice —

Through Mercy only, I live to tell

Of its exorbitant price

They sell all your possessions

And barter with your soul

While paranoid obsessions

Exact their heavy toll

Until, alone, with dross to sell

Your stark calamity

Reverbs through the Depths of Hell

The Devil’s victory …

For ready to strike

And ready to trip

The Three Headed Dragon

Is quick as a whip

This Beast is our foe

Whether fabled or not

Remember, wise fear

Is Bondage not sought …

The fear of the Lord,

Will part us from sin

His Word as our Sword

Is the Wisdom we win

This Wisdom of Word

Is knowledge of truth

The Humble man’s forge

To set himself loose

For bound to the Master

Us forgers design

Our liberty and freedom

While life has still time

As others still loose

And gamble their ways

Having trouble to choose

The dark, lighting their way

While the Master of Sleuths

Will smell all your fears,

Your joy or excitement,

Frustration, anger, or tears

And, as we trudge on

Past quagmire and lore

True wisdom we don

And brief triumph we score

For two heads are now gone

In the weeks we’ve abstained

And while the last head is drawn

We must harness our reign!

For this Battle is won

But the War still prevails

And our work is not done —

Only quitting, now fails …

While The Three Headed Dragon is fiction

It is a metaphor for addiction

It challenges use, which leads to abuse

And our feelings are its predilection

It will feign its submission

A counterfeit guise

A ruse of remission

A malice of lies!

Crafted with wit

To thwart bit by bit

The Dragon will prey

Until your last day

It’s not just in hell

This Dragon doth live

It’s part of our psyche

It takes what we give

So, Nay Onto Death!

No, Never this Way!

Now, will my last breath

Be honest today?

For the past is now gone

The answer, not there

And the future, beyond

I throw not a care

Today I possess

And from dawn do I choose

The armour of God

And the knowledge of truth

Now also with shoe

Do I have for my dress

As I gird up my loins

I am swift to address

Each thought of the day

To relax my defence

Or my voyage to stay

Or my compass pretence

Instead do I praise

The source of my light

As I battle by day

He protects me by night

So too even this hell

And furor, barely at bay

Will fade and diminish

Today, yes today.

Copyright © 2009 Timothy Alexander Donnelly

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Scripture References can be found in the books below, or online at http://scriptures.lds.org/en/contents .

1. The Holy Bible (Authorized King James Version)

2. The Book of Mormon, Another Testament of Jesus Christ

3. The Doctrine and Covenants of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints

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Rom 13: 13

“Let us walk honestly, as in the day; not in rioting and drunkenness, not in chambering and wantonness, not in strife and envying”

2 Cor. 10: 5

“Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;”

Eph. 6: 5

“Servants, be obedient to them that are your masters according to the flesh, with fear and trembling, in singleness of your heart, as unto Christ;”

Rom. 15: 18

“or I will not dare to speak of any of those things which Christ hath not wrought by me, to make the Gentiles obedient, by word and deed,”

Luke 8: 15

“But that on the good ground are they, which in an honest and good heart, having heard the word, keep it, and bring forth fruit with patience”

2 Cor. 8: 21

“Providing for honest things, not only in the sight of the Lord, but also in the sight of men”

D&C 98: 10

“Wherefore, honest men and wise men should be sought for diligently, and good men and wise men ye should observe to uphold; otherwise whatsoever is less than these cometh of evil”

1st Cor. 7:22

“For he that is called in the Lord, being a servant, is the Lord’s freeman: likewise also he that is called, being free, is Christ’s servant.”

Mosiah 5: 8

“And under this head ye are made free, and there is no other head whereby ye can be made free. There is no other name given whereby salvation cometh; therefore, I would that ye should take upon you the name of Christ, all you that have entered into the covenant with God that ye should be obedient unto the end of your lives”

Eph. 6: 12

“For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places”

Eph. 6: 13

"Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand."

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Centre for Addiction and Mental Health (Canada): http://www.camh.net/About_CAMH/index.html

The Donwood Institute: resort of last resort (Toronto):

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC1875283/pdf/canmedaj01391-0076.pdf

The Salvation Army (Canada):

http://www.salvationarmy.ca/

Hope Acres Addictions and Rehabilitation Centre (Ontario):

http://cioc.cmhagrb.on.ca/record/GCL2044

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"Each year, thousands of men lose their way in this stress-filled world due to the ravages of alcohol and drug addiction. Helping the lost of our communities find their way back to useful productive lives, and allowing them to find a new beginning and a brighter future is the mission of Hope Acres, a part of the Salvation Army's Addiction and Rehabilitation Department (ARD). Hope Acres is a place of new beginnings for chemically dependent men who have lost their self-direction, whether socially, mentally or spiritually. Hope Acres' Clients find the loving hand of God, through the Salvation Army extended to them right where they are - in the midst of their pain, guilt and despair."

http://www.salvationarmy.org/can/www_can_hope_acres.nsf

Please visit this link to view the complete FREE PDF file of the L.D.S. Family Services Addiction Recovery Program manual: http://www.providentliving.org/familyservices/AddicitonRecoveryManual_36764000.pdf

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